The most important thing? Many many happy returns of the day.
Now the rest
We cannot divide people into two categories, the extroverts and the introverts. The reason why i am strictly against this categorization is the fact that I am one of those who lie in the grey between the two. The extroverts that are emotionally introverts. I apologize. But i am helpless.
The only good to this is that i cant write it down. Things that i feel and the best part is, i can escape the awkward phase in which i have to see their reaction. I think it’s a blessing to you too because my reaction on your reactions (given my super expressive face) only makes things worse.
Coming back. I could quote a million reasons why i found a wonderful person in you but here i try (try try try try) to sum it up (a bit)
You taught me that it was okay to be an outcast
I was different. I didn’t follow the popular culture. I didn’t crack popular jokes, i didn’t laugh at jokes which i didn’t find funny. I was the girl whose nose would rather be in her book than in anyone’s business which also turned out as a girl who was always disinterested in being friends with anyone and thought much of herself (wrong.)
But he taught me that it was okay to be what i am and i didn’t really had to sweat about this small silly stupid thing.
You taught me that it was sexy to be real
That i didn’t have to hide behind curtains. That to feel what i feel and to say what i feel isn’t a taboo but a blessing. I had never seen such a straightforward person. Maybe he didn’t know what he was thinking. Maybe there was no plan and no strategy behind all this but whatever came out of his mouth was true and real. Was something that he felt and that you and me or anyone at all didn’t have to worry about being judged in front of him.
That life goes on.
Yes maybe we face things others have not. Possibly we are different and we are learning. That shit couldn’t keep happening forever and the madness would eventually stop. That holding on to a feeling, a person or a situation will only hinder your progress and won’t fetch you anything better. Because he knew above the dark, the sun was rising.
That we need to break our own barriers
The biggest hurdle in our own happiness is us ourselves. We can overcome our shortcomings to become a better us and that in no way means that i have to be ashamed of the current me. In fact i should be proud of myself, at least i am trying. This indeed is the first thing that comes to my mind when i think about him and i think this is one thing which is very important for all of us to learn. Something that radically changed my life.
I cannot remember having a friend with whom i could be myself to this level. I can share anything i want, anything i feel with him, without the fear of being judged. I could call him up 3 am in the night and i know he would be there for me. I know even if there is nothing he can do about my problems he would always listen intently, understand my situation and most importantly.. My feelings.
And if you have earned such a friend in your life, well done bro and if you haven’t, here is the standard set for you. This is how a friend should be, always making you a better person, always teaching you to move ahead.
Even if i don’t call you (Akhil) all the time, i might not text you everyday. But that i doesn’t mean. lala lalala i don’t know. You get it, right? 😀
Love you more. Wishing you all the happiness in the world.
Your stupid friend