Monthly Archives: January 2016

Do you know?

Do you know how much I long for you?
For the way your lips touched mine
For the way I felt your breath on my neck
For the way my heart races to find you

Do you know how much I hate you?
For waiting for you like tomorrow wouldn’t come
For wanting your touch your soul your heart
For your voice when you let your walls down

Do you know how much I love you?
For making me yours even when I’m not perfect
For loving me when I hated every inch of me
For bearing with me when I was at my worst

There are some things maybe you’d never know
For there are some things i wonder words could ever convey

Will you come back?

I stretched my hand in the middle of the night
Only to feel the cold sheets on your side of the bed
Only to feel a pang of anxiety you feel on losing something dear
Where have you gone, near or far away?
Do you dream of me the way I dream of you,
The way I keep my hopeful eyes on the door,
The way my finger tips trace my face searching the marks of your touch?

I sit by the window, my forehead touching my knees
I stand on terrace searching through the street hoping to see you waving at me
I walk in the rain that chills me to my bones,
To feel something other than the pain you’ve left me

I thought of jotting all my questions down
The ink stains my fingers while my tears blur the ink
Yet another night is about to pass
Come before the sun comes up to burn my hopes

Longing lingers longer than it should
The night is endless the fight to forget you unfruitful
How do I know if I must move on
Or if you will come back to my aching heart?

Sometimes

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Sometimes I feel like I’m lost
I can’t find the right music on my phone
A song that might lull me back to sleep
Before I find it, your thoughts creep in
And I’m awake, I’m scared

Sometimes I laugh even when I don’t mean it
I paint it on me as if I were a mannequin
I’m confused, I don’t know where to go
I know I can’t let the world know
So I laugh, through my melancholy

Sometimes I want to cry but just can’t
My tears fight with me, they’ve been trained to hide
They’re stubborn, they won’t let go
The same way I can’t let you go
Hence I stare, unblinkingly watch the ceiling

Sometimes I’m happy and I don’t know why
I feel that you’re here, I feel your love
I’m at peace, I’m contended
I don’t feel like a part of me is missing
And I paint the world in my own colours

How strange is mankind, this is what I feel sometimes
Searching happiness outside of us
Even when we know that it lies inside
Nobody will hurt you as much as you will hurt yourself