Monthly Archives: July 2013

“Desire” – Spray Paint on Canvas by Me…


Ray Ferrer - Emotion on Canvas

“Desire” – 20″ x 16″ on Canvas by Me.  Hope you enjoy this piece!

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Can you help?


“My sleep wasn’t peaceful, though. I have the sense of emerging from a world of dark, haunted places where I traveled alone.”
― Suzanne CollinsMockingjay

I am in a dark room.. I don’t know where i am.. there’s just a beam of light entering the room.. i guess i woke up after fainting.. my left eye hurts to an extent that i can barely open it.. i try to stand but i fail.. i am consumed.. completely.. my clothes are torn and i feel a quiver going through my veins.. who has done this to me?!! i’m asking myself. i feel like yelling… where’s mom? where’s my brother?! are they okay? who brought me here? i don’t know anything? my fingers are numb? i can’t see my hands.. i feel blood flowing drop by drop from my head.. i’m horrified… i hear the door open.. i hear the creaking noise of shoes… he is a man.. i can’t see him.. he growls at me.. he is laughing like a devil… i’m looking for god.. he tells me he has taken everything i don’t deserve.. he says i don’t deserve anything.. i feel him come near to me.. i still can’t see him.. he caught me by my hair, he is pulling my hair mercilessly and laughing… i yell… i’m yelling out of terror…

i’m yelling our of terror my heart out.. as loud as i can ever be… suddenly i feel light.. my mom.. she is trying to wake me up… it was a goddamn DREAM! unbelievable and embarrassing.. i hugged her and broke into a million tears…

What’s that made me cry?! What made me see the dream.. i’m clueless.. is it my insecurity?! is it the pain of other people in the world that i keep hearing through various media which precipitated in the worst way it could? Can you help me interpret? if yes.. please help…

Simplicity: Simply Stupendous

“Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.”
― Leonardo da Vinci


How complicated is it to be simple in this complex hungry world which is ever ready to consume you as a whole so that no one even realizes that you ever existed? Trust me, its not simple.. I’v met at least more than 3000 people in my ever wandering wonderful 18 years 11 months and 22 year old journey.. Among these have been people whom i ended up detesting (my bad :\) but the numbers are few.. The modus operandi in trying to understand people is different for every other person but you might meet people with greatly overlapping thoughts and we end up keeping them in our good books…

My modus operandi is so far based on mathematically rational principles (i presume) which i try to relate with my principles about God, Love and Humanity the most important ones in my life which have always given me the strength to keep driving ahead on my ‘so far so adventurous’ journey of life..

Out of all the people i have met, the most astounding trait that i have found is that of simplicity.. Simplicity is not about being bland or dull or boring as it mind first strike your mind.. Its about being what you want to be but still being grounded.. About wholeheartedly accepting the fact that we all are humans and our goal ultimately is to evolve spiritually and make our soul worth the human body which we reside in.. although there are people who have completely forgotten this goal and are involved in boasting, insulting, competing foolishly, and creating menace in everyone’s lives the former have always won my heart.. From my teacher in high school to the man i accidentally bumped into on a long journey, from my revered father (who has always been in my heart and with me in spite of being away) to this guy whom i spoke to last night (now that’s a secret :D) I have been lucky enough to meet this section of simply stupendous people ! These are the hope givers!

So glad to meet them! I’m looking forward to meet more in this category! Are you one of them?

Long Distances Part 1 : The Change

Change is inevitable. Things that do not change, rot. The distinguishing factor is for the good or bad…


Changes are anticipated by most and accepted by some. “You have changed a lot” is a sentence seldom used positively. Well, changes when sudden scare me, but i eventually discovered their recurring nature. Many changes undoubtedly have been painful, but some of them have given me my much awaited spice at different stages, sometimes refreshing like the morning dew and at other times mesmerizing like the full moon.

Here comes one more change, staying away from our pampered ‘Home sweet home’. Its not just about independence and freedom and ‘i-will-have-to-clean-my-own-shit’ agenda. With this freedom walks in a temporary void. Physical absence sometimes hurts, but this is the real test. When i come across people living away from their homes, i can sense the void taken up. But along with this void comes trust, the void filler and the insecurity killer. And this trust eventually makes our relationships stronger than ever and as we slowly start feeling the spiritual part of the story, we realize that ‘changes are indeed for the good’ and that ‘life would have been stinking without changes’.